these are film scans from late summer (i think. it's been awhile). no editing except for a few changes to black and white. photographed in independence, oregon with a hasselblad 501cm using expired kodak/fujicolor film. i think next time i'll keep better notes on what film i used. ;)
these belong with a previous post. but since i'm bad about labeling my film and having it processed with any sort of regularity, i just found them recently. 2 frames from texas this summer. photographed with seagull twin-lens. [caption id="attachment_1143" align="aligncenter" width="490" caption="no editing but i did change this one to black and white. guilty."][/caption]
i generally carry all three of my cameras - the 50d, point & shoot, and a twin-lens film camera (the seagull). unfortunately, the film photographs usually take several months to ever see the light of day, so i end up with batches of images that i barely remember taking. or maybe fortunately? sometimes that's more fun. [caption id="attachment_624" align="aligncenter" width="510" caption="south corvallis, winter"][/caption]
i think differently when i photograph using the seagull. it feels more natural, more like an extension of my eyes than my digital camera. and i know that it isn't technically the best kind, so i let go of that need for a perfect image and just try to capture a bit of what i'm seeing. there's a loss of control, when you can't see what you've made and you end up with light leaks and dust spots, that i always love. my printmaking teacher says, "happy accidents".
i've been thinking a lot about that - capturing a piece of life, a slice of beauty, a tiny smidge of reality. so many of those attempts are futile - it seems impossible to truly catch that flickering smile, or the look in someone's eyes as they gaze at their lover. even the way a flower looks! to really and truly capture that is so hard. and there's that sense i get of spending my energy trying to render life onto film instead of being in the moment myself and actually experiencing it in my body and my heart.
but there are times when there's a balance. and i live for those times. when i am experiencing deeply through my camera, when it is almost a tool for meditation. when it gets me closer to the forces in our world that we can't always see, but that are in all of us.
so i guess that's a little obscure, and i'm sure that you won't see that way when you look at these seemingly random images. but when i look at them i remember how i was feeling at that place, and what i was thinking about, and dreaming about, and that's all i need.
these may be some of the last pictures i have from this beloved camera, since it broke going through security at an airport in texas. hopefully it can be fixed! it wasn't very expensive but it's made well and i was totally shocked when i got it home and something was rattling around in it. to me it feels a little like if someone had lit one of my journals on fire.
thank you for reading, if you are. i have a couple personal projects planned, a few trips, and a new lens to play with, so by extension i hope to blog more often. have a lovely week!
i've shot many rolls of film since fall and hadn't had any way to process the color... until now! i just got my expired color film back from the lab and was very excited about the results. one of the amazing and irreplaceable things about film is that when it's old or damaged, you can get some interesting color, grain, and contrast shifts. i happen to love how the color begins to skew and fade with age and can't wait to see what happens when i process the 30-year-old black and white rolls on monday!
these are from a shoot i did as a collaboration with my friend jozef. working with former classmates is always wonderful for me because collaborating and sharing ideas is one of the things i miss most about college. A. was our wonderful model who is being very patient with me - i still haven't gotten her a cd of the digital ones... or posted them anywhere for that matter... bah!
during this shoot i was testing out the hasselblad owned by the studio i work at - but i'm not sure which of these film shots are from it or from my trusty seagull. i couldn't quite get the hang of the hasselblad - i'm going to try again soon.
these next ones are from chanukah. i was in bellingham visiting my family and it snowed! my little sister talya has always been one of my favorite subjects.
well, i guess that's all for now - but not for long! have a good weekend!